I'm thinking about a few things...

I think university is not fun anymore, in fact, is quite a nuisance, it has nothing new to teach me and in fact keeps my time from doing things that I would like to be doing, yet I have at the very least 1 more year of it before I earn my bachelors degree...

I think I must leave this country, I see no point on staying if I am not in a position where I can change things, in fact, even if I'm in a position to change things around here, I don't really believe it might be worth it...

I really have no clue as to where I want to go, in spite of being toying with the idea for the last 4 years, I really at this point have no clue... You see, wherever I have planned on going I have gathered information, in not one case I've seen I have the requisites to be legally allowed to live anywhere outside my country, since in fact, graphic designer is not in the priority list of any nation, so... It comes down to studying somewhere else... Now, as you all know, an education is far from cheap, and my saving will come down to zero after I'm back from New York City... So I would still need a scholarship, which, from the looks of it, it's also pretty hard... My options so far... Canada (Montreal, Quebec or Toronto) (For which I have to learn french, in a year... ) Japan (Tokio) (Where there is almost zero possibility if you do not know Japanese) Spain (Barcelona) (Where I have to learn catalan, but it is in fact quite cheaper and easier to get and stay...) USA (New York) (Where education is really really expensive and scholarship is almost impossible) and of course England (London or close) (Where the government is willing to pay for my studies, but it requires me to come back to my country, and pay back all they gave to me, so it's not really a good option)

Besides that, I really have no clue as to what to do after I leave university, since, let's face it, I'm not particularly excellent at any field, so far I enjoy photography but don't really see it as a career path, illustration sounds really cool but also hard to make a living from it, design, in general, kinda annoys me... And well, making a living as an artist, well, my pieces aren't commercial so that's kinda not an option at this point...

And well, besides all of that, there is also the simple fact that lately I feel so... Uncaring... I mean, I'm not dating anyone, I'm not even going out anymore... I'm just at a point where I feel stagnant... I don't know... It's the kinda crap that doesn't let you get any sleep... Bye